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I have had enough here. I wished I had choosen a better body to be born into. This one has done nothing but brought heartache and misery to me. I dont think this planet WILL ever be ready for us regardless of what some anicent calender says. I deeply feel like the lizards have won this planet completely and we are doing nothing but waisting time and energy which could be better used somewhere else in the galaxy. Surely their is some other planet that would better welcome our efforts than this one. I am tired of my personal mantra being lifes a bitch and then you die and I am one more day closer to dying and leaving all this shit behind. I live with the following conditions here: high functioning developmentally disabled, Aspenger's Syndrome, flat feet that blister easily, lazy eye, mytro valve prolapse, tmj, hypothyrodism, depression, social anxiety, learning disablities, unspecified personality disorder, myofascular pain syndrome, stimulus condition and sleep apnea. You basically have to dress like a whore it seems like to get a man of some kind here in America. I dont feel comfortable dressing that way and I believe it cheapens me. What does that mean? I will probably wind up delievering on my word I gave my earth parents which was if I am not married when they die, I am willing to be made a ward of the state and placed in a facility so my extended earth family doesnt have to care for me. They have their own lives to live and the dont need to be burden with the care of me. Plus in a facility I can be kept heavily sedated so my mind doesnt wander back to what could have been if only fate had smiled down on me. I have had enough and all I can do is cry quitely because out loud aint an option. Why? Because it would draw my earth parents attention to me and they would want to know what is wrong with me and then turn around whatever I say and make me look like the bad person. God this planet sucks.

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Thank you buddy.

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Yes I understand how the feelings is<> This is however all part of the shift in consciousness>nothing is wrong with the embodiment which your essence reside(s)>< it is the mind that needs re adjusting *shifting consciousneness* First step to awakening and remembering who you are>> More shall flow through you as the moment arrive> *hugs*

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Thank you.

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I just read your post and it made my heart extremely heavy. It gets very hard on earth, but you cant live in this apparent misery. Make the most of your time on earth. Fight to avoid the superficial society. Everything is so heavy right now it's hard to see a bright side in our personal lives and the public life, but you must make a strong effort to remain positive because you are putting negative energy in the world and that negative energy affects us all. Good luck and peace to you always.

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Yes everything is heavy on this earth. I just awoke from some extremly vivid nightmares here. I am too scared to go back to sleep.

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im just very tired. wasnt this way a year ago, endless energy, the vivid dreams. now it is still vivid dreams however more like nightmares, and when i wake its worse.

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I know that I'm only sixteen...I understand all your feelings...but you have to understand that when our love interacts the negativity becomes destroyed and it leaves you. I personally just want to hug you and hold you close to me so we can send each other our energies and let our energies fuse together and mix lovingly. I love you with the light and love in the deepest part of my heart....Its been way to long for me ...I'm 16 Earth Years old. I know that this planet is evolving but you got to understand that WE CANNOT LEAVE YET. Just let your love brighten and let your soul boil that darkness and let your self be free..I'm telling you this because I'm a angel of Light and Love...Yet I think I'm also a lightworker yet I'm not fully awaken....I can feel the sadness coming from you sister....Please allow me to pass my light to you and allow you to feel and stay safe forever and always. I LOVE YOU Let your light shine with all its strength.

Ps: When I read this my soul cringed at the thought of the world becoming this corrupt...I also need somone to hold me and say that everything is ok. So I speak to you . I will hug and hold you in my arms and I would love if you hugged me back with all your might and let us be awakened .... let us be aware of the light the truth and love!!! =D

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Wow this explains my feelings bang on, I've felt so alone lately....but I suppose it is my duty here to complete my research before leaving...

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-Smiles- Now thats more like it! ^_^ Check this out, I've been having many visions of Lyra, Pleiades, Andromeda and another planet called Grogonux 7 or in other words Digital world, Its a mirrior of this world, But on the 5th demension. I have also seen the love of my soul and vibration. -Hugs you- Don't feel lonely we are here to help each other and love each other. I can tell you alittle trip I had yesterday, I went to the carnival, But I knew that I was eating negative things, But you know....ITS ALL APART OF EXPIERENCE, Don't stop your self from trying new things, Just stay away from Artificial sugars, Advice from me? um EAT EASTINDIAN SUGAR CANE!! ALL NATURAL!! =D So yummy lol

Love and Light to you, Remember We are all in this together till the end, And we will suceed, If you believen in me and everyone else take my hand and we will punch through that darkness.

Isn't it wonderful how the young mind can manifest so much with unconditionaly love -Laughs with love-

Sendning my love to you .... In abundance ^_^

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