How can I get my family to realize what I am going through?

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Permalink Reply by Mercuriel on February 24, 2008 at 8:54am

Joshua,

I absolutely understand. I too have had a "rough" time of It. When they tried to diagnose Me when I was young I did what You did very quickly. I didn't have problems with My "friends" or the things I "saw", "heard" or "felt". And so they were very pleased when I stopped talking about It. I would just sluff it off saying "It doesn't happen anymore" or whatever was appropriate for the moment.

The above stated I kept on "seeing", "hearing" and "feeling" My friends around Me all of the time. I just kept it to Myself after that experience so I could stay under the radar so to speak. I wouldn't let anyone take away My gifts and didn't...I understand though how others come up on the "radar" and end up having difficulties because of It.

My advice is to stay with what You are doing (IE Off of the Psycoactives and Psychotropics) and get lots of sleep and eat healthy. Stop using anything that has flouride in It and get a water filter that takes the flouride out of Your tap water. Flouride destroys the Pineal Gland or deadens it at least and this is not a good thing (The Pineal Gland is Your physical connection to Spirit or is where that connection is nurtured).

Kenny,

I am so sorry to hear about Your misfortunes. If It makes You feel any better let Me roll off a few of My credits before I became Awakened.

1. Diagnosed as Hyperactive when Young and ALMOST put on Meds until I realized that I would loose My gifts if I did not shut up. I knew I'd need to do this until I could decide what was to be done with Me - All by Myself as an Adult...
2. Kicked out of the House at 16 and forced to sleep on the streets.
3. Drunk Tanks.
4. Jail.
5. Mixed up with Biker Gangs and the Hard Party scene.
6. Collector for other People (No I will not elaborate).
7. Father was an Alcoholic and beat Me regularly when I was Young.

Now with all of the above I still managed to accomplish the following...

1. Finished My schooling.
2. Earned 2 Black Belts
3. Got a great job with My Provinvial Electric Utility.
4. Got married and have a wonderful family.
5. Recently became independantly wealthy.

I only say the above to state that We ALL must walk the valleys before We can soar the Mountain tops. We MUST "have been there", "seen that", "done that" and "have the T-Shirt" to prove It. Do not forget that Our task after Ascension is to be the New Earth Teachers and "Way-Showers". Now, how can We do that If We don't have "Our PHDs in Life" ???

All I can really say Kenny is that Reality is a mirror. It reflects back at You that which You reflect to It. If You're feeling negative - You get negative back. If You're feeling positive - You get positive back. Not that negative things won't or can't happen to You when Your being positive but with a Positive attitude You'll see the negative as a challenge and not a roadblock. This is the easiest way to surmount Our challenges.

What I will finish with is this...

Those that are to be "Saved" or "Awakened" will desire It. They'll show interest to what You display and will ask questions. That right there is Our Opportunity. Those that do not, are absolutely free to do so. This is a function of "Free-will" and must be observed by All of Us. If they want to be Awakened - They will make it known...

If not, then this is the way of things and You must let it go out of Unconditional Love so as to alllow others to chose what they may. I make sure people I'm trying to Energize, know they're choosing to NOT "know" and then I let It go as I've done all that I can without violating their "Free-will".

I wish upon the both of You Peace, Light, Love and Harmony.

Namaste,

Mercuriel

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Permalink Reply by Joshua Orazio on February 25, 2008 at 12:55am

Thanks so much for your in-depth responses, I'm glad that people here can connect so easily and understand what I have gone/am going through.

I am moving beyond those negative clouds and cycles & I'm confident that I can maintain the perseverance to get through to the light if hardships do arise again, which can be expected in this life. It's just a blessing to have like-minded people to talk and heal with..
Although I'm not going to start a new topic about this (maybe another time/context), but I was wondering if you had any feedback towards psychoactives..
Currently in my life I'm doing my best to maintain organic, healthy, fresh diets, devoid of any chemicals including substance usage. But I have in the past (& this has nothing to do with my 'clinical' experience) experimented with psychoactives used by shamans across ancient history (not lsd or synthetics, but only natural such as mushrooms).. and I want to make note here that I wasn't using them for the 'fun and games' of it but was very interested in the shamanic/vision/insight aspects. It did push me forward in my path I think, and led me to many great realizations and discoveries which led me to where I am. So I am sure that while there are things we can learn from them, but is it necessary? or does it make the path harder for some people? I've seen such diverse responses in people from all walks of the world.. so my perception on what's sound and solid in this topic is a bit 'differentiated'
Thanks for your comments I'll be keeping this in mind. :)
Namaste

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Permalink Reply by Juphilia on February 24, 2008 at 1:34pm

You dear, dear Soul of the Light! First of all let the feeling settle in your heart that YOU ARE NOT ALONE, ever!
Do you know the story of Harry Potter, by the English author J.K. Rawlins? (Recent Fantasy-books about a boy who is born a Magician and lives in a family that doesn`t understand him ...) Well, they are written as a message to the new children of the Earth who are like you, although the writer doesn`t know this at all consciently (inspired writing..)
There are Magicians and there are Muggles, as she calls the ordinary people. The Muggles can never understand the Magicians, because their conscience is narrowed. They don`t see the World as it really is, they just see a small part of it, and they don`t know who they are. The Magicians` only hope is to find others of his kind, and through the graduations of the tasks he is confronted with grow and find his inner strength. That is your destiny. And I think you know it : ) And, as the Magician you are, you bring with you the tools you need to survive. And you have us, your real family!
In the meantime, never loose faith in yourself, be the loving son/ brother that you are, let your Soul shine through. As you grow stronger, your Light will radiate. Look for the cracks in their armored hearts, that`s how the Light gets in! : )
This is what we all do, as we go about our daily life, grounding Light and waiting for the frequencies of our Mother Earth to rise to the point where all the armors crack. Gradually the Muggles too will see it, and recognize who they are!
(Picture: The sword in the stone represents your own power, you know what happens when you pull it out!)

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Permalink Reply by Joshua Orazio on February 25, 2008 at 12:58am

Thanks for your loving support Makayla =)
I'm glad to hear from others that what I'm doing is OK, and that things will work out as my gut tells me they should.

I will look into your recommendation and maybe share it with my folks. Let's keep in touch,
love & light
Josh

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Permalink Reply by Joshua Orazio on February 25, 2008 at 1:13am

Hi Halderon ~
I am not 18 yet, still in high school, one more year for that :-/
I'm still seeing a psychiatrist that my parents send me too but I can never really discuss who I am and instead end up playing along, 'wearing a mask' pretending to be interested in what they say.... all to avoid further conflict and just get out of the mess once I'm on my own and legally able to do so.

I am seeing that more and more I am pushing my parents towards more spiritual holistic lifestyles, which I hope only progresses as e.g. being the only vegetarian in the household, I'm not always happy to find steaks sitting in the fridge X_x (no offense to omnivores, but there are alternatives)
My parents are opening up to a lot of the things I approach them about, while at first I was sometimes ostresized, they are starting to see that this is who I am. They are loving people, and I know they deeply care about me -- this is why they throw away money to these prescription drugs which I really don't want or need. They don't know how else to help -- maybe I need to help them too and that is why this has come up!.

I had a very tough year a few years ago when I was in the midst of all this stuff, & I believe I had many demons/negative entities in me that were just sucking up all my hope and light.. so healing the past and understanding myself is my current stage I suppose.

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Permalink Reply by starwalker on February 25, 2008 at 3:04am

Kenny,

There IS someone who cares. God cares! He's the Creator of us all and loves and cherishes us infinitely. Not a hair falls from your head without Him knowing that. Be sure He knows everything you've been through.
Don't let those negative and hopeless thoughts grow on your mind. I beg you, don't even think of suicide, brother. I've been there, and I bet many of those that frequent this site have too. Only later would I understand that those thoughts were not actually mine, but sowed there by dark entities. And you know what happens when people resign to those sugestions and actually kill themselves? They find on the astral plane those malevolent beings scoffing at them, making fun of the ease with which they managed to get them to kill themselves.
Put your faith on Him Who created you, for He is conciously and directly interested in extinguishing your suffering. Believe that.
I've sent my prayers on your behalf. He IS going to help you and He's doing it soon because I see you need it. Whether you believe it or not, He is going to take you out of this situation. Your faith in His assistance, however, will ease the flow of His Grace into your life.

Be in peace, and be in touch, I'd like to know how are you doing, ok?!

Mateus.

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Permalink Reply by THE PEACEFUL ONE- I AM Warren on February 25, 2008 at 3:35am

ths is the time to reflect light love Try my friend to look for the good in all you meet. In your mind give Light and love. I know depression I have been there . When this happens get some help. I did and I am shining all over the place. lol

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Permalink Reply by John on June 8, 2008 at 11:54pm

Dear Joshua,
Medications will indeed not help you much. MediTation on the contrary will be a blessing. Do not count on too much understanding from close familymembers. You might be lucky, but in most cases indigo's are too different to be understood by most average mortals that is including their family.
My advice would be try to have positive thoughts about everything for every waking second, and live. Your life will attract people on your frequency automatically, so it will become easy to make friends with them.
Namaste,
John

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Permalink Reply by Sharon on June 9, 2008 at 12:48am

MY dearest Joshua

It has been and still is to some extent a lonely journey for me. I have a beautiful family who love me very much as I appreciate and love them but they too pass my thoughts off as 'mad'. Until now I have nobody else, and I mean not another soul that I have had contact with on this level of existence that has understood my concepts. You see Sushant that I am in search of help and understanding and sharing and cooperation and the giving of the food that is in abundance on this vessel of knowledge. My thoughts have indeed carried me into suicdal depression and ecstacy all of my life. Manic depressant is what they call me I have now learned, thanks to God, the source to control my thought and no longer manifest depressive symptoms. Indeed am very much happier in the two the last two years for not taking the prescribed drugs in a bid to change my reality, which was of course futile. I have no desire whatsoever to spread more pain (mental anguish I gave my family)and no longer feel the compulsion to either.
I am telling you this Joshua because I feel I need to express to you that I have not taken the World lightly and the thoughts that I have are the reality of 'my' life in the sense that I have my thought priority over everything most time I felt unwillingly. In other words Joshua; I do not function very well in this physical World because of my thought patterns. I do not get depressed anymore and still do not function very well either. I have had experiences as a child that nobody has ever been able to explain to me to my satisfaction. I was admitted as a psychiatric patient at the age of 10yrs for nine months and have have been on occassions since. Jos, the things communicated on this ship are the only things that make sense to me. My family think that things of this nature are interests, hobbies and pleasure pasttimes, I on the other hand know that this consciousness is the very stuff of life and it always will be paramount to life. I have had very little outlet for my expression and even had to deal with anger for my paradigm. Strangely, when I felt the experience no God I still had had faith in that I, myself would find the answers that I was so hungrily searching for, God was with me even then. Religion has had no claim to my thoughts for many years. Physics will confirm the contrast of life in beautiful ways and spirituality as wonderful as it is still left me hungry for conformation of myself.
The lightworkers and other multidimensional beings satisfy my hunger and package so greatly my paradigm that no longer feel as disconnected from the Source and can once again feel loved for my entirity and not just aspects of me. More importantly than that; I have found Ashtar to be the vessel of openness, understaning and expression that can only take me to my wholeness.
I do not now feel that my life of loneliness has been wasted or missused because I now know that I wanted this, all of it. I love it and would not do anything different. I asked for the means fo understand pain and sorrow and was given it in abundance from the generous love of the Source. Yes, I was stubborn and did not understand any of it but had I understood then the suffering would have been futile. You and I came here because Our civilisation and families where on the brink of distruction and Our MotherShip Earth is the vessel to expand our consciousness back into the state of health it was designed to be. We 'odd' ones are on course to feel the energies of creation, know them and so raise the reparation and health on our NotherShip and to many other life forms that are still suffering as we once did. Take the vibrations from your heart as a reminder that your family in this realm have supported your life in all of it's thoughts. They do not understand my brother because they are on their path and only they will make their own. You are expanding into the multidimensional being that will lead your family to the greater love of Our Grandparent, Parents, Children and Grandchildren. We are loved in our whole essense and in Our sentience. Keep well and prepared for the time is near for us all to be together again as one
Much peace and light to you my dearest brother Joshua

Sharon xxx

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Permalink Reply by Portia on September 16, 2008 at 7:03am

This is a somewhat older post, but I just want to say that I know what I have went through to get here. I will share some with you to help. I am a 38 year old female who is a Indigo Child, Starseed, Lightworker, walkin, and an Avatar. I sense there is more to this list, but that is all I know for sure right now. As a child I saw spirits, had premonitions, and was all around clairvoyant. My family did everything they could to stop this, the doctor diagnosed me as ADD, and put me on RItalin. When all else failed they used God and the bible to silence me, telling me that I would go to Hell if I continued the Devil's work. I must say I am impressed with how you have chose to handle it. My family also abused me sexually, physically, emotionally, and spiritually. I picked up my first Occult book at 14 years old, and was fascinated by what I read. The abuse continued by family and friends, until eventually I turned to sex as my addiction of choice. I drink on occasion, tried pot (never got addicted), no sex seemed to be the answer. My thinking was I will use it to control them, before they can do it to me. It is a very sad chapter in my life because I could not be a normal teen girl. I lost my total virginity at 14 to a guy who I had a crush on, so sure he was in love with me. I come to find out later he molested my aunt as well. The man was 25 or more years older then me. I continued down this path because hey let's face it sex feels good, but somewhere something was missing. I could not put my finger on it, until the past 5 years, but I did not feel complete. Ok, so during the span of about 15 years I used sex to get what I wanted. I moved down to Texas to be with a man, and he started taking me down the dark path, so one night we did a meditation and I asked my true self to be revealed. I went to bed that night, and woke up with a new person inside of me. I changed seemingly overnight. Went from completely black clothes to purple, changed my name to Portia, and told the man there that I did not love him anymore in that way. I found the term Twin Flame, and knew that is what I was looking for, but I did not know how to get it. For a few more years I hopped to two more abusive relationships, and then finally of December of 2006 started looking at my life. I enrolled in college majoring in law, and have maintained a 3.2 GPA to date. I also started taking better care of not only my physical body, but my spiritual one. To this date I had experienced every form of abusive you could think of including losing my three children to welfare. In January of 2007 I found my Twin Flame. We spoke for a year, and then he was gone, he felt that I still needed to grow. I believe we will be reunited though in the future. We had spoke of meeting in California, and I purchased the bus ticket. I decided before I went to go visit my family, this was not in my best interest, so I went home for a visit, and got stuck there due to a blizzard. Now here is where the abuse tries to come full circle again. They offered me to stay there with them, which I knew was not good because it ended badly two years before this, but I allowed myself to be talked into it, because I wanted to see everyone. Everything was fine for 6 months, and then my aunt pulled me in and started giving me the lecture of having my New Age books, and how I was a Satanist, and my friends were Satanists, too. So she had me to leave, this left me depending on a girl who I had only known for six months, she offers for me to come stay with her in Pittsburgh. Only after a week of being there this girl throws me out, so of course thinking my family would certainly understand in a case like this. They called me a gypsy, and a liar, and a moocher, and ever other name that came through their mouth. So here I sit in Canada with a bus ticket to Los Angeles, but no where to stay if I go there, and they added further insult by telling me that they do not know me, do not write, and do not call.

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Permalink Reply by Portia on September 16, 2008 at 7:16am

I am having to finish my post here, some sort of issue.


As I was saying:


My point is I lost my own family to live the life that is right for me. Don’t let anyone snuff out your gifts no matter if you have to lie, or simply not bring it up until you are on your own. Believe me you will think yourself for it later.


Love and Light

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Permalink Reply by Sharon on September 16, 2008 at 1:25pm

Hello All

I wanted to post this in response to your loving and open revalations of your suffering. I thank you so much for them because it is only through exposure that, that we can know the true extent of the suffering on this planet and in this we can begin to find ourselves and reasons for it. i love you all and understand that as much a we can try to convince ourselves that everything is ok, untill we believe it , we are running around on the harddrive of our minds and decieveing ourselves. Yes we must think positively but that doesn't explain or get to the root of the suffering. We need exposure and gentle healing to take place. With this in mind I have wrote my beliefs and answers. It is my humble opinion and only wish to share in the healing


All of you star children (children from the heavens) reading this knows you have sacrificed a large chunk of your life to the greater plan. The people that don’t see the bigger plan will see us as self indulgent and promoters of our own misery. This is the EXACT opposite of what we are about. We feel the frustration of waiting for the world to catch up and wake up to the consciousness that is the primary source of existence and until we get that part right, the physical cannot be right. Our time is very close my loving companions and friends. We are about finished with exposure and ready. We are ready to manifest the truth of existence in life. We are ready to leap out of our beds and participate in the true energies of love. Knowing that we are merely helping our world back into the Christ consciousness of pure natural energies. Oil is about finished with. Natural electro-magnetic, water and crystal technologies are about take their rightful place in healing and sustenance of us beings that resonate with love. We not only know ourselves but know others more than they do, in their busy pursuit for the illusive power that oil gives them. We are aware of the wheat from the chaff and know the people that are here for the same reasons. Stay with them and together we WILL be guided by the divine light of the Christ consciousness. Sleep well, eat well and use this time to gather our strength because we are the true guardians of the Earth and in future we will guard against the authoritarian bullies. They are being ousted forever from this existence and it is of their own free will. Do not feel sorry for people that know of their consciousness and decide to take the path of authority. For the people that are still lost and deceived; they will understand the new knowledge coming to them and will make their own choice. We are here to gently guide those searching, as we all, still are searching, some are more aware than others and we all look to not only find but to show the way that we have been shown. Wayshower: There is only one way and that is through divine love. Anything short of that will not fit. We are here to support and guide each other through this battle and we are on the winning side now. It has been raging for many eons of time and we have worked and sacrificed so much (in this and many lifetimes that we have come to contribute) that we are the ones deserving to see the results of our victory. There are millions of us, even those loving souls that have passed will be reborn into the glorious love of creation. Hold on my friends and angels because we are very close and the dark can do nothing more that it has already done to us. We are brave fearless warriors now and have proven this many times to those that truly know us. We are the strongest of all humans because we dare to expose the fear in this world in very powerful and profound ways. It is our actions that show the world that things are not as they should be. Now it is time to love ourselves and stop darkness from pervading our own minds. We can do this, we know we can because we are not afraid to speak and show the who and what we are. We forgot about showing it to ourselves because we always knew it was there bu

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